Helpless

My mom has been in a state of depression for the past 2 1/2 years. I feel helpless and sad. I want her to get better, but it seems that everything we try doesn't really make a difference. She is in a constant state of anxiety and she's not totally 'there' when your with her. She has this blank stare all the time and is numb to her feelings.

When I'm with her, I don't know what to do. I talk with her, but what I say doesn't seem to register with her. She gives me simple 'yes/no' answers. Not much else.

It's scary.

At times I find myself pushing myself away from her so that I don't have to face it.

I have to believe that deep down inside she knows that I love her and I want her get better. Deep down she is struggling to get out.

I still feel helpless.